11 out of 27 diaries I read haven't been updated in over 3 months. And yet I don't remove them, in the hopes that one day, they will return.

I hold on to the past too much. I wait and hope that things/people will return to normal.

Or what is normal to me.

I will be leaving her this week. Not for anyone or anything, but for me. I'm tired of being pushed into the shadows. I've lived there long enough. And although she has the best reasons of anyone to keep me there, it's a dark lonely world I no longer wish to be in.

I will miss her. But I miss myself even more.

- - 2009-02-16
- - 2009-01-22
Money Troubles - 2008-10-31
Missing - 2008-09-27
- - 2008-05-26